Jasmine Becket-Griffith (jasminetoad) wrote,
Jasmine Becket-Griffith

Ahhhh.... random ramblings....

I answered about 150 emails tonight. Actual emails too (not spam or LJ). I am soooo proud! I just kept telling myself each time I finished 25 I could get another glass of wine.... Lol, do the math ;) I'm not the type of person who gets tipsy easily though, but I do feel more relaxed. I've only got 50 emails left which is wonderful! I'll leave those for tomorrow. I've strained my eyes so badly in the past two days I had to wear my glasses today since my contact lenses were hurting my eyes - aaaghh! (Anybody who knows me should know that's pretty bad, since I HATE wearing glasses....).

I also finished a commission today! I'm very happy with how it turned out, and I've just sent the scan to the client for approval. After I finish up Laura's commission tomorrow I'll be primed and ready for a whole new string of totally original paintings!!!

I'm still debating on what to work on next - I have a lot of ideas.... Too many ideas sometimes. I can't close my eyes at night without seeing potential paintings. I can see a long line of them stretching almost infinitely into the horizon....

I really don't know how everybody else paints, but MOST of the time basically I just kind of scroll through my head - I can already see them, almost down to every detail, and I just select one to put onto canvas first. When I actually paint, it's kind of like going on "autopilot". I think that the "creative" part is actually thinking of them in my mind - which I generally consciously do, when I'm walking outside, trying to fall asleep, or even working on other paintings. I think that is part of the reason so many of my paintings are self portraits - when I design the paintings I often like to put myself in there, trying to make my life a little MORE magical.

The actual painting part sometimes seems mechanical, and I feel kind of detached from my hands, but very euphoric.

Other times though, I don't have a clue, and I just start slapping paint down. Sometimes these turn out being some of my best pieces, but sometimes they scare me because I don't know where they came from. Like Lynda, that girl who channels the painter in that Lois Duncan book "Down a Dark Hall" (lol, I don't know how many people here know that one....). Hmmmm....

Okay, I'm going to bed. Matt's snoring on the couch. I'm going to go read and imagine new paintings......
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