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[Nov. 5th, 2002|09:32 pm]
Jasmine Becket-Griffith
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i'm a habitual cyber-stalker. for nobody in particular. i think it is probably some sort of obsessive disorder - i don't know. perhaps i should clarify:

example: i find out someone's email address. anybody's really. (it may be someone who forced a business card on me back when i was a waitress. it could be a minor celebrity whose ISP i uncovered sifting through website domain name lookups. or some idiot i used to go to highschool with.) i use ridiculous methods. i think of screen names or online monikers they might go by and try them out, one by one. i then search the email address infinitely through search engines and assorted databases. i find bulletin boards they posted to in 1996. i look at what they've bid on on eBay. if they have aol, i monitor them in chatrooms. i find it endlessly entertaining. like all of this useless information i dig up gives me the upper hand or something.

NOTE: i really haven't done this with anyone reading this livejournal - i can respect people's privacy when i feel like it =)

i suppose it is a very non-confrontational way to find things out about people. i don't have any (non-internet) friends who aren't related to me. how weird is that? i've never been big on having friends really. i don't think. i think i used to want friends, back when i was a little girl, but i got snubbed a lot for being weird, or smart, or poor, or crazy, or whatever. i had a couple of friends in high school, but i kinda think that they were all better friends with each other than they were with me. most of the people i hung out with seemed to do it out of a sense of obligation, and i think i made them uncomfortable. eventually people just go away. maybe i made it a point to make people uncomfortable - that sounds like something i'd do.

luckily i met matt online and he was very persistent about meeting me in person, otherwise i'd probably be friendless and single.

i'm too introspective today. i was just thinking about my schedule - matt works all the time. i don't drive. i don't like cold weather, so i don't go outside - not even to check the mailbox. on mondays during the daytime, matt is at home and he takes me to the post office. on wednesday evenings, matt doesn't work and we go to my sister kachina's house. matt's other partial day off is thursdays (during the daytimes) when we go to the post office. occasionally i will do something with my mom or dad on sundays. after that, i do the post-office-on-monday-kachina's-on-wednesday-post-office-on-thursday thing again. fortunately, going to kachina's house is one of my favourite things in the world to do. unfortunately, going to the post office is my least favourite thing to do.

i'm really not complaining, though it may sound like it. i'm not even depressed. i like not having to work, or go to school. after i move to florida i'll probably do more stuff. for one thing, celebration is built for pedestrians, so i can walk places. like the post office, lol. it will be nice outside - warm at least. but i won't get to go to kachina's house as much. that makes me depressed. i plan to fly back to kansas city as much as i can. since i don't have a job, i can do that whenever i like. of course, matt will have to work, but he said it honestly wouldn't bother him if i visited my family without him. i also plan to fly people down to visit me a lot. but i know that my sisters have lives of their own. amber will be married in the spring, and i've been hearing kachina planning for a baby sometime in the not-too-distant future. maybe if they see how nice i have it down in florida (assuming i do have it nice down in florida) they'll think of migrating themselves - lol, hope springs eternal.

man, i don't want to check my email. i haven't looked at my inbox since this morning, and the little aol window that version 8.0 has shows that i have 52 new messages. everybody wants me do commissions for them, all by christmas, and that just isn't going to happen. i've got my work pretty much cut out for me for the next two months - i'll have to tell any new people that i can't do paintings for them until after the holidays.

i SEVERELY need to update my website. i have TONS of new prints and stuff. it just takes me SO LONG to do the code for all the new items - i always dread it. maybe i'll do that tomorrow before i go to kachina's house.
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[User Picture]From: smallgirl
2002-11-06 08:42 am (UTC)

i know what you mean

when i remember elementary and middle school i know that there were people that i considered friends and that i would have lunch with but i dont remember ever doing friend things with them. once i told my dad in high school that i felt like i was to weird for most of the normal or average people but not weird enough for the people that the normal people thought were weird. if that makes any sence. i dont have very many friends outside of my family and the ones that i do have are like family members. i think im just not very good socially or something. i hope you dont get to overwhelmed with your commissions this season. that is a lot of emails, yikes. i was wondering one thing. do you make your own prints on your computer or do you work with a print maker? i just read about the print making process and it seems pretty complicated.
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[User Picture]From: jasminetoad
2002-11-07 10:29 pm (UTC)

Re: i know what you mean

i make my own prints =)

i had originally thought about having them made professionally, and started looking at prices. most places wanted to charge me more than i would even charge my customers, and they would require a minimum run of like 500 prints. i don't even know where i'd keep that many, let alone how long it would take to get rid of them if it wasn't a print that caught on.

so, instead, i bought a 1220C Professional series HP printer. it prints any size up to 13"x19", with wonderful quality. it'll do me for now. i like being able to print on an "as needed" basis - so i don't have to worry about storing them (like if my kitties got into them, or if they suffered water damage or something). it's also fun to have a nice larger-format printer like that to do fun crafts like calendars and posters and stuff. it cost $450, but i quickly made it back. i see used 1220Cs on eBay for just a couple hundred dollars sometimes.
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From: ariaelf
2002-11-06 03:22 pm (UTC)

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Yah, thats pretty much why I refuse to do commisions on a "call me if you want one" basis, no matter how much I can make at them. It's stressful enough just to make sure to put an auction on ebay every week =P If I were ever to do them, I would list one or two when I had free time and let people bid for them, or I would make my prices $75 each or more, so that it was really worth my time. The holidays are so stressful as it is, and with all the other things I have going on (work, family vacation, wanting to build a home on my land, doing art for ebay...) it would not work out right now =)
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